Becoming Your Own Best Friend

I don’t have many good friends any more. Many of the people I thought were good friends moved away and slowly stopped contacting me/responding to my texts. Many of the people who are my good friends don’t live near me. So I’m pretty much by myself here in lonely old Indiana. I remember 3 years ago, there were always people over at my apartment. I had multiple people texting me every night wanting to hang out. I haven’t gotten a text from a girlfriend in months. It’s sad how time changes things. Your friends graduate, move away, and start a new life, meanwhile, you’re stuck in one place. That’s how I feel.

However, I have become exceedingly close with someone. That someone is me. I talk to myself. I laugh at myself. I feel like I have a friend. I know it sounds silly. But I am my own best friend. We have fun together. If I were not myself, I’d totally be friends with me. Hahahah.

This period of friendless-ness has also helped me grow more social. Now that I don’t have many friends, I go places a lot more by myself in hopes of meeting new people. I strike up conversations. I’ve become more outgoing!

Anyways, I just wanted to stress the importance of being good to yourself. Be your own best friend. Take care of yourself. Become comfortable with being alone.

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That is how long it’s been since someone has contacted me for something other than a favor. That is how long it’s been since anyone has asked me to hang out with the sole intention of simply hanging out and enjoying my company. It’s been 3 weeks since the last time I felt important to someone.

3 weeks of feeling unloved, insignificant, and alone.

However, since I assume this is going to continue, I plan on dedicating all my free time to someone extremely important in my life…me.

I hope to grow mentally, physically, and spiritually in this time of being alone and without close friends. Sure, I have acquaintances. Sure, I’ve texted these acquaintances to do something. But have they texted me to do something? Nah.

I miss my close friends. They’re all back home. I have no one here. I am no one here.